Somewhere

Somewhere I had lost myself. Somewhere along the way my vision fogged. This journey began a long time ago and is quite a long journey. Yet it isn't that long ago, only four years of college really. But it numbed me, and somewhere during that time, I changed. For the worse, for the better, I don't know. I just know I don't necessarily long for the naive confident little girl I was when I entered and I definitely don't want to be the person I am today. I can't define her. I don't know her. She lives inside of me without me. She lives in spite of me. Somewhere within me.
Now I talk in riddles because I can't spell out the truth. I'm afraid it'll be too clearly sounded out for my own ears to hear. I talk in riddles because somewhere inside of me, the pains, the vulnerabilities, the weaknesses cover themselves in fear of being exposed. They cover themselves in a blanket of thorns to those who trespass. Believe it or not, one of those trespasser is me. I don't know who else has trespassed, whether or not they merely glanced at the thorns or have touched it and were scorned. Actually I do know. I talk in riddles.